GAZA :"(

It had been 6  days straight Israeli (IDF) had its attacked on Gaza. Eventhough actually almost everyday people died in Palestine because of their inhumanitary acts, but the societies seemed like didn’t hear anything since the media had been blocked from releasing most of the news. I first heard about the latest massive attack on Gaza last Wednesday, when I dropped  down my Gazan friend’s profile on Facebook. I had been told that the Israeli were planning to cut all the connections including internet for the people in Gaza.They really don’t have the right to do so! What a cruelness they had made! 



During the class break, I immideately told my classmate from Gaza, Ghada about the news. She was very shocked and said ‘ how can I contact my family??’.She said 6 muslims were shaheed during the last explosions which were just located at the roadside ,nearby to her home .I told her my Gazan friend just told me it was 12, and more than 100 injured!. Ghada is the eldest from 5 siblings. Her parents and 4 younger brothers and sisters are living in Gaza, but I’m not sure in which part.She had her degree studies at AlQuds University, Jerusalem. I could feel what she was feeling , she just left Palestine a month ago for Turkey, for having jihad on her  Master studies, and now,pity her, she must be very worried of her family whom she had just left .



After our Turkish lessons, she told me that she was going to Kizilay which located about 10 minutes from our TOMER centre to contact her family in Gaza, since there’s an only place that she knew to call her family in Gaza by using a telephone card. She said the last time she talked with her family was 2 days before that. But had able to talk for about one minute only because of the connections cutted.I think its not fair for her since I could contact my family for almost everyday and chatted for hours…huhu..She was absent on that evening class and also for the next day. I was veryyy worry because I still didn’t know her family’s conditions, and she didn’t came to school.I’m sure there must be something that’s so hard for her.When I was about to returned home, Alhamdulillah I saw her at the metro station. She was waiting for me to ask for that day homework. 


Once I saw her, I asked her about her family’s conditions and Alhamdulillah she said that they are fine. They are now living in a room since the exploded places just surrounding them. Ghada said that she could heard the sound of explosions through the phone.I could imagine since I just watched videos of the explosions in the class.Just through the earphone my eardrum already vibrated! I couldn’t imagine if I’m in the real locations! I still vividly remembered the last Israel massive attacks on Gaza on 2008. I was just 14 at that time, everyday I read the news about the sad news.But before this I never had such feelings. I know that people being killed in Palestine but I just made du’a for them.But this time,I’m feeling so near to Palestine, not just because im living here in Turkey but because I do have my close  friend who are now staying in Gaza! Within this week,almost every hours I open my Facebook to ensure he is online to know how his and his family conditions. He came to Turkey for a stuff about a month ago and we had planned to meet. Unfortunately ,we didn’t have the chances  until he went back to Gaza about 2 weeks ago. I’m feeling terribly sad since he’s now truly in dangerous conditions.I don’t wanna lost my beloved friend since he had opened my mind about the Palestinian issues since long time ago. 





Before the Israeli started the missiles on Gaza this week, I’ve asked him about how the condition in Gaza because of the media silence,I didn’t know the real facts happening there. He kept saying that the condition always in dangerous . Last Thursday, I got a message from him that he was in a veryyyyyyyy dangerous condition.  And he asked me to keep praying for Gaza and asked me for forgiveness because he said he knew that he will leave. Tears can’t stop rolling down on my cheeks. Last Saturday night ,after a long waiting, I got a message from him saying that ‘its very dangerous. we are under attack, in my village, my streets’.Mixed feelings surrounded me thinking of the situations there and upcoming exams. I asked my friends to pray together for my friend and all people in Gaza. On Sunday morning, I saw the news that number of people being killed had increased to 45! I was thinking of my friend and his family after got the last message from him last night!! Alhamdulillah hours after that, I saw him appear online, means that he is still alive..I believe that Allah had arranged every single things and inşallah He will create a miracle towards Palestine! 

I still remember I had an Israeli friend in a penpal site which I had joined since I was just 9. I don’t remember her name but her nickname is something like ‘ even yehuda’. She’s from Haifa if im not mistaken. We were not too close but we had talked before , sharing our similar teenager interests. Years later, I didn’t seen her appear much on that side.Until last year, I saw her profile back. I was very shocked when I saw her writings on her profile that she had joined the Israel Defence Force (IDF). I always heard about IDF before after the attacks on Gaza. But I haven’t heard that women also took part. In her posts, she was saying that she was very proud of her country, Israel, which one of the most powerful countries in the world, the modern nuclear technologies and whatsoever! There were some men in the sites who kept debating with her about the issue and she kept defending her ‘beloved’ country.She seemed had a verryyyy strong spirits of her country. Until now, I had lost contact with her since im sure she had removed me from her friend list.I don’t feel sad even a bit! But I’m trying to search for her profile back to see the notes posted by her regarding the issues.

             


         

Last Saturday, as usual I kept reading about the latest news about Gaza in Gaza TV News page in Facebook. And also several pages such Team Palestina, Press TV and Harry Fear. Harry Fear is a British activist and journalist who are currently in Gaza for reporting news. I listened to his recorded audios by this week about the situations there. Sometimes he appeared online , and also kept saying about the poor internet connection there. Last Friday night he posted a video of him in the CrossWalk show , where he debated with the Jews(I don’t remember who was him) in Washington and another person in New York. 



Harry kept defending the Palestinians and said that the Israeli had killed innocents civilians including the women and kid . He said he did talk to a Gazan whom said ‘I’m willing to invite the Israeli to stay in my house if they stop the attack Gaza ’. He never agreed with the Jews man  who said that Israel trying to get the peace and complained about the Hamas ‘extremists’ who had their LITTLE handmade missiles towards Tel Aviv .Israel don’t want the peace, but they just wanna get the title ‘Great Israel’ by conquering some of middle east countries after they reach their goal to conquer Gaza! Harry knows that they are trying to defence themselves after the Israeli had their attacked on Palestine since looooong time ago  starting from 1948 (Nakbah). May Allah protect him from the attacks for being soooo kind and guide him to the right path. He has a lot of supporters in Facebook who keep praying for him .Maşallah.

Last Sunday morning, I saw a post on my Gazan friend’s profile. It was a 20 seconds video which took LIVE by him . A building which just located about 300 meters from his locations exploded due to the airstrikes fell. It was a veryyyyy loud explosions. And sounds of people talking something in Arabic which I could hardly understand could be heard.

I just saw a post which was posted about 7 minutes before in the TV News page. Until now, (Monday.,9 am) the death toll has risen to 90 and about 700 injured including 6 journalist whom one of them had lost his one leg. Nau’dzubillah…

                                 

Let us never stop praying for our brothers and sisters in Gaza, and also Syria because a du’a may cause a change even a little. Keep believing of His power. Eventhough we feel we are living far from them, and we don’t feel much what they are feeling, we couldn’t be ignorant by not making dua for them since they are still part of our family members since we are living in the same world!

Its not only because of the religion issues, but also the Human Right issues!

I admit I’m not a good writer but I’m just trying to expose what are currently rounding in my mind and inşallah it might benefits others. Teşekkurler, Assalamu alaikom.

FIRST DAY AT TÖMER CLASS

When I put my first step in the TOMER centre, Gazi University at Maltepe, I was like wow! Finally I came here. I kept surfing in the internet about the place and never thought of having chances to study there after had been informed that  I might be placed in other universities for TOMER. What's TOMER actually meant? Türkçe Öğrenim,Araştırma Ve Uygulama Merkezi. There are a lot of TOMER centres,which are  institutions to teach Turkish as a foreign language to the foreigners. Since i'm gonna study medicine in Turkish inshaallah, i need to attend TOMER class for 8 months . Inshaallah if everything going smoothly. I’d dreamt that I’m gonna study TOMER in other cities, I really don’t mind, at least I could feel  different way of lives between there and Ankara , since I’m gonna study medicine in Ankara. But, He had arranged every single things and I’m sure that this is the best for me.

                                                      where i'm having turkish lessons :D

Ok. On that Thursday morning, I came sharp at 9.00 am by Ankaray. Ankaray is like a KTM in Malaysia.. maybe.lolz..Alhamdulillah I’ve learnt to go there alone because i need to be more independent after this since im gonna study here for years inshaallah. I went to the office to ask for which  class I should attend. I asked one of the uncle, trying to explain to him by using English and bahasa isyarat.lolz. Then I told him, ‘sorry, Türkçe bilmiyorum’, which means ‘ I don’t  know Turkish’. He then replied me ‘ Ingilizce bilmiyorum!!” .im sure you can expect whats the meaning. haha. Both of us then laughed. He brought me downstairs to another office, and asked me to check my name on the list. Then he gave me an envelope which I could understand needed to give to the emniyet if I want to make the ikamet (residence permit). I do understand but then he asked a boy, who was sitting on the chair to translate to me in English. He seems know English a little. Then I talked to him to make it clearer. The uncle asked me to follow him to the class, and I finally entered my class, T-6.the boy from Afganistan. Soon after that, some students got into the class. We asked for each other for our backgrounds. The other boy from China. I asked him ‘China?’ coz I didn’t expect that he is from China .i cant predict but he looks like a malaysian or somewhere from around Malaysia. Finally he said that he is fom Uyghur. I was like wow! Again! Lolz. My sisters told me that she has a lot of friend from Uyghur at Egypt and I cant believe that I’ll have friends from Uyghur, not one but four for now :D and another girl from Georgia. I never had even a penpal from Georgia.i always heard about the country but I thought its somewhere around Norway or Sweden .my geography getting worse lol. Georgia is actually located near to Armenia and Azerbaijan. Its about between Russia and Turkey. Its also known as Gurcistan in Türkçe. What attracted me most is, I was the only one who won’t able to speak Turkish! They already knew Turkish and spoke Turkish to each other. I’m trying to make myself feel better and assume that later there must be students who are coming who do not speak Turkish, just like me 10 Minutes after that, a teacher got into the class.her name is Sera. She was very sporting and cherish. She thought four of us about the Turkish alphabet. I’ve learnt it before by myself but it’s a bit different from my previous pronunciation. Now I know how to pronounce all the letters well Alhamdulillah. Time after time, another student got into the class. She is Palestinean but living in Jordan. Next, 3 students got it. 2 girls also from Uyghur and another girl from Algeria.

                                                          arkadaşlarım :)

 I’d been told that the TOMER lesson will be fully in Turkish but I never thought its too fully in Turkish. 

                                                          my turkish books..

The next teacher, named Serhat was very funny when he made all the reactions based on the alphabet to make us understand. What I love most about the TOMER lessons, eventhough it starts at 9 am and end at 4 pm, we do have break for every  45 minutes. That won’t make us feel bored and sleepy in the class. The break is about 15 minutes and in the afternoon, we have break for an hour for having lunch and namaz (solat). The first lunch, me and my classmates were about to have lunch at the café since we had been told that there was a café for students. Unfortunately, there was a very long queu to get the food. Then, they decided to have lunch at the restaurant outside the campus. Our friend from Uyghur , his 3 friends , the Algerian, the Jordanian, 2 girls from Uyghur and me went to a restaurant nearby. We ordered tavuk sandwiches for 9 of us and çay. Now I know that some of them are going to another university for example in Erzurum. Most of them are going to pursue  their studies for Master and PHD and I thought I was the only undergraduate student. I heard about Erzurum and I just remembered that it was a city where Fethullah Gulen was born. They kept saying that Erzurum is very beautiful city, and the people are very Islamic and friendly until they couldn’t explain how ‘mashaAllah’ they are :D Now,Erzurum is already in my list for places that I want visit in Turkey  .ok a lot of things need to be wrote actually. But all the experiences I had are not enough to be shown just by writing.

New blog~

Salam! my first post here :D
Actually i used to create a blog years ago. but the same problem as other people encountered , forgotten password. i had it for twice, but still could be used .until one time i left the blog for months, it couldn't be saved anymore.hehe. i don't know what to do with the old one n here come ths new blog :D

Inshaallah i will keep update this blog when necessary. to share my experiences and knowledges.besides, to let my family members keep feeling my presence eventhough i'm now living thousand miles away from my beloved country, Malaysia! hehe